My Honest Thoughts on Self-Producing “Sweet n Sour”
hey hey! i’m so beyond excited (and way relieved) to say that “sweet n sour” is finally out! yessss!! i’m so just wildly excited that this song is finally live after a year and a half of just adoring (and lowkey fearing) it. if you haven’t seen it, i posted a ‘behind the scenes’ video of the “sweet n sour” photoshoot, and i sort of poured my heart out for a second there—i’ll go ahead and copy it right here:
‘behind the scenes’ video of the at home photoshoot i did for my new single, “sweet n sour”! i wrote this song back in july 2024, so i’ve been wildly excited for the release of this special song—i produced the whole thing myself—which was quite the journey (check my blog post from feb 16th for all the details)! this song is all about an ex-situation/relationship and what i saw in myself when i realized that i stood up every single time i got knocked down. i realized that this girl i had been kind of conditioned to believe was bad, wrong, and all sorts of negative things, was actually an incredible girl worthy of confidence and wholehearted love. from the jazzy instruments to every syllable, i’ve poured so much love and patience into this song. i believe in it now the way i believed in myself then. i hope you adore this as much as i do—i’ll cherish the experience of making this song forever.
anyways, i’ll give some more thoughts about the song later, but for now, i want to just talk about the experience of self producing it—best wow, self producing this was the most rewarding and frustrating experience omg. i’ve been recording songs on garage band for years and have experience recording in the studio (check out a few of my studio produced songs from 2013 in my “about me” section), but when i produced, “trust me,” i knew i needed to level up with my software. i’ve watched so many hours of how to produce videos, and for so long i just could not get it right and balanced. there were always problems with the software, which always made it more and more frustrating by the day. but finally i got to a point where i was understanding and hit a big big break-through. but from that break-through there’s been so many mirror details that have sent me into like “i need it perfect” overdrive. i work 7:15 to 4:45 and have a long commute—day after day i would come home, rest for a minute and then work on my song until midnight. it was honestly so exhausting and frustrating. omg the amount of tears that i cried—it was just something else. like i said before, i believe in this song so much and in the woman that i’ve become and the girl i’ve always been. from my pink sparkle outfits and my love for service (i’m an americorp member today 💝) to my second nature relationship with music, i’ve finally come back to myself and feel the most balanced i’ve felt in who knows how long. my heart is so full, and i feel so lucky for that! and because i believe in myself so much, i just felt like this song had to be absolutely perfect. it was so exhausting feeling this way—i sacrificed so much for this song, but i know it was absolutely worth it. but boy oh boy was it so difficult experiencing so many setbacks.
thank you for listening to me yap lol. if you haven’t heard my song yet, check out the links on my bio to give it a listen!!
